Date: Tuesday, March 02, 2010 @ 2:30 PM
title: A precious Gift from God :)
It is rare that I will blog, especially when i am in the midst of crazy project deadlines that are due WEEKLY! However, this is one blog post that I want to remember for the rest of my life, because it is very special and precious to me.
As the title states, it is a precious gift from our Father :) On Saturday, 27 Feb 2010, on the 2nd night of the Holy Spritual Meeting, God decides to accept me as His child :) I did not know what happened, I thought that I was only touched by the Spirit. I did not know that I was filled instead! I asked Auntie Lois, and she said I was filled! Praise God!
On the 2nd night of Holy Spritual Meeting, we had 3 rounds of praying for the Holy Spirit. It is a feast that God decides to pour His Spirit upon His believers, as it was the End times Spring rain.
During the 1st round, I was praying and shouting as usual, but my mind kept floating around and not concentrating. Elders and Deacons have already told us to empty our hearts, and just concentrate on praying, and shouting 'HALLELUJAH!' Our thoughts , minds and hearts can only think and pray to God to fill our hearts with the Holy Spirit! I started to rock front and back when praying, I couldnt stop myself! After like 1o mins of praying, we stopped to rest for a while.
The next round of praying started, and I tried to shut all the worldly thoughts and worries I have. I started to rock front and back again... Just concentrate on praying, I told myself. I thought of the sermon that Deacon Mark has spoken earlier, where we need the oil to give out lamp.
In the Old Testament, there was this lady who did not have any money to pay her rent, and she only had a little oil with her. The angels told her to collect as many containers as possible, asked her to borrow from her neighbours. Then, the miracle started.. The woman poured her oil into the containers she has, and the oil kept flowing! It filled the empty containers, ALL of them until none was left. This story kept me interested, and we are like the containers. We HAVE to empty our hearts, to be like the empty containers for God's Spirit to flow into us. If we still have thoughts and worries, how can God fill our hearts then?
So, i started to pray, trying to empty my heart and only concentrate on praying. However, I was too tired, and thus the praying came to a stop. When I opened my eyes, I saw that Sister Diana was crying, and auntie Lois was hugging her. We felt happy for her, as she was filled with the Spirit, one week before her wedding! It means to us that God accepted her, and blessed her with the most precious gift!
I went over to the kitchen after a while, to pour drinks to moisten my throat. On my way there, I met Auntie Lois again, and she told me, 'You are almost there! Its just that you are too tired.. Try again! Keep it up!' This sentence woke me up and I have decided to give all my strength and energy to push for the last round of praying.
At last, during the last round of prayer, when I started praying, my body again, rocked front and back uncontrollably. I began to think of nothing, except to pray for God to fill my heart with His Holy Spirit. I was shouting on top of my lungs and my voice went very high pitch! I couldnt do that given a normal situation! My voice became very strong, and I used all my strength to pray and pray. My body was sweating all over in an air con room, and apparently the air con was not working very well.. Suddenly, I started to cry, slowly, and after the first tear drop, my tears started to flow down like a fountain and I just want to praise MORE and MORE! It was crying out of pure joy, and I couldnt stop crying. Deacons were laying hands on top of my head, checking whether the Spirit is the right one or not.. I just rocked front and back, and was crying very hard all the way.
Then the bell ring for us to stop praying, but I just could not stop! I could hear Auntie Lois saying 'Amen' to me, for me to know it was time to stop. I was crying very terribly - according to my sister who was in front of me, and I couldnt stop crying for about 2 mins. Then, I began to stop and someone passed my tissue. Kristab was beside me, hugging me.
I was amazed how hard I cried, and how I couldnt stop my crying. I thank and praise God for choosing me and descending His Holy Spirit upon me! This means that with the Holy Spirit inside me, I will have God with me at all times! God will always be guiding me to make the right decision and it is a very precious and wonderful gift God bestowed on me.
I went for Holy Spiritual Meeting on the 3rd and last night, and again, I told myself to empty my heart and mind and concentrate fully on Him. The 1st and 2nd round was not too good, as I was tired cos I went there straight from work. But on the 3rd round, God touched me again, and I cried again, but not too long. Haha :)
I thank God for blessing me because I dont deserve it. Thank God and HALLELUJAH! May Glory be given unto Jesus! Amen!
God bless,
Estheroan*
